Hahahaha.. Currently now working.. Nothing to do so I post with my hp! Hehe.. =) Rin working cashier.. Now so slack.. Arrrgg.. Sian ar.. Stupid.. >< Hmmm.. Anyway nothing elso to post ar.. So bye readers! TatA.. =)

Hey i'm back to post..
Haha..
Do you guys miss me?
Hehe..
Sorry for all ya..
Didn't get to update on X'mas eve..
Hmmm..
Cause i'm having a fever on that day..
A serious one that got me really very sick..
I think that you all should know cause wenqi helped me did a short update on that day..
Haha..
Thanks Dear!
Hmmm..
I seriously gotten quite lots of thing this few days..
I gotten a new handphone which i wanted for so long.
I gotten a ***********p
Guess what's that..
Haha..
But you got to keep it a secret please if you know..
And i gotten a worse thing ever..
A FEVER!
Oh my goodness..
Stupid..
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Hmmm..

Cause of my dear wenqi..
I shall make an update just for her!!!
Hmmm..
She's going to malaysia soon and will be back don't know when?
Tomorrow going out with her for piercing..
And it's so called the last day i can see her for this year!
Oh my god.
I'm going to miss her damn pretty much mann..
Hmmm..
And of course she'll miss me too..
Haha..
Right wenqi??!??
I knew you will right?
Hehe..
I'm thickskinned mann..
But i like the way i am..
Cause this is ME! =)
I'm damn tired this few days but i just can't sleep with no reason..
Hmmm..
Guess i'm going to be dead when school reopen..
Cause of my tiredness, my homework not done yet, and also my studies..
I'm damn scared that i can't pass my O's next year..
Oh my god..
Hmmm...
Going to work hard next year..
Don't want to slack anymore mann..
Haiz..
Sian ar..
Always says this but i know that i can't do it till 100%..
It's impossible ya..
=(
Hmmm..
Yesterday it's X'mas and i celebrated it in my aunt's house..
The dinner was perfect although it was almost the same every year..
But i like it..
And also it's fun..
With little niece and nephew around..
Haha..
Kids are really cute mann..
Haha..
I love them much.
They are smart..
Haha..
Although they're young..
Hmmm..
Wish i could have smart kids next time when i get married..
Haha..
Okay it's still far and i'm talking nonsense..
Hahaha..
Anyway got nothing to talk much ya..
Just can't wait for tomorrow's piercing..
Hehe..
And i'll cherish the time tomorrow except for the time that i have to work in TK..
That's stupid..
I'll never enjoy the time working there..
Idiot..
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Hmmm..
Got to go..
Bye readers..
TatA!
=)



byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .


Hmmm..
Okay i"m back to update my blog..
Haha..
Let's talk about yesterday..
Hmmm..
Yesterday went to have a talk on Amway with rin..
I knew about their products..
Their products are wide..
It includes things that we need from head-to-toe..
Haha..
We even tried the products..
The result shows immediately!
And it's really amazing..
The products was good..
We were satisfied..
Hahaha..
Especially their skin care..
Includes polishing scrub, toner, cleanser, moisturizer and lotion..
Hmmm..
I intend to buy some of their products..
Anyone interested too?
I'm buying and i'm selling it too!
Come and find me if you're interested..
Haha..
Then after the talk it was about 5pm..
We went to KFC to have our dinner..
And I asked Zie out to the lobby so i can send her the song she wanted..
Haha.
And we chatted for a while..
Hmmm..
I even told Zie about the chinese name that i figured out for her..
And i think it was quite nice and cool..
Hmmm..
诺范琪
Haha..
Nice right?
It represents her name Norfaizie..
Hmmm..
Haha..
After that we waited there for frankie to come to meet rin..
Haiz..
Can't stand them..
So mushy..
Eeeeewww..
Stupid.
Hmmm..
After frankie ate his dinner at KFC..
We went back to my house..
Hahaha...
Don't know for what..
Anyway..
Haiz..
Lots of homework not done yet..!!!
Omg..
Might not be able to finish le..
Stupid..
But i'll try my best to..
Haha..
Hmmm..
X'mas is coming soon..
It's just next friday..
Yippee!!
Gonna received lots of present again..
Hmmm..
But gotta give out lots of present too..
Anyway..
There's a take in, there must have a give out..
Haha..
This few days keep being bothered about something..
But after a long decision..
I've decided to just let go!
Serious this time..
Come on..
I'm cool..
Haha..
Anyway it's not the time for me to think about all this stupid and childish thing right now..
I'm going to be prepared for next year o'level..
It's going to be a crucial year for me..
Hmmm..
And i'm going to study really hard..
To get my goals..
Haha..
I'm sure i can do it with my determination..
Anyway..
Not going to talk about studies here right now..
Hmmm..
And finally..
Class 3F going to have our class barbeque next tuesday..
Woah hoo..
Can't wait for it.
Hahaha..
I'm sure.. it's going to be fun!
Especially with our group of gans in our class..
Hmmm..
Really miss you all except for 'somebody'
You guys should know right..
Haha..
Hmmm..
Shall look forward to that day..
Anyway just a short update today..
Bye guys..
Seeya..
TatA..
=)



Things just can't be settled easily as i thought..
I hate myself to love you so much that i didn't even know i did..
Why do you have to keep appearing in my mind?
I just can't stop thinking about you..
My friends keep tell me not to think too much..
But how can i stop thinking when you are all i think about..
How i wish you could know that i miss you now!?
You are still at Jakarta..
I can't even text you to let you know..
But are you what i think?
That you really don't give a damn to me?
I hope not..
But the real truth are soon going to reveal..
I hope that it will not be the bad side i think..
Haiz..
I thought that i can just let this go but i really can't..
My feelings now is just like a song named:
Burning out by Tata young
               Lyrics:
I don't wanna take a step back
But I'm running on emptiness
We're just no longer on the same track
And it's killing me in every way
You take me in; shut me out, you're breaking me down
Tell me that I'm the one, but I see through your lies
It's all misleading, you keep me bleeding
It's like I'm burning out, burning out

You're making me feel so alone
Baby just let me let go
Cuz I just can't escape your ghost
The fire you started once is now
Burning out, burning out
I'm burning out, burning out
I just fade away
We're burning out, burning out
We keep on burning out, burning out

I can't find myself leaving
And it hurts with every breath I take
That I will never know the feeling
Of you loving me the same way
You take me in; shut me out, you're breaking me down
Tell me that I'm the one, but I see through your lies
It's all misleading, you keep me bleeding
It's like I'm burning out, burning out

You're making me feel so alone
Baby just let me let go
Cuz I just can't escape your ghost
The fire you started once is now
Burning out, burning out
I'm burning out, burning out
I just fade away
We're burning out, burning out
We keep on burning out, burning out

Have you ever even noticed
All the pain when you look into my eyes
Tell me, have you ever even thought about
that I'm, I'm burning, I'm burning out

You're making me feel so alone
Baby just let me let go
Cuz I just can't escape your ghost
The fire you started once is now
Burning out, burning out
I'm burning out, burning out
I just fade away
We're burning out, burning out
We keep on burning out, burning out

This song really express my feelings now..
And i really wish you could listen to this song.
And understand it..
Hope that things will really come to an end..
I'm really tired of what i'm taking in now..
Hmmm..
Anyway i think my post will just end here..
Bye readers..
TatA..
=)




Hahaha..
GOOD MORNING!
i'm back readers!
Hmmm..
Good news..
I have decided everything in my mind!
Guess what?!
I have decided to not to think about everything!
So that i'll be more relieved!
Why do i have to be so miserable..?
Haha..
I should have make up my mind earlier..
Hmmm..
Now i'm back to my cheerful self!
Hahaha..
Laughing everyday especially during work with my dearest colleague..
Hmmm..
Talk about colleague..
Zie you make my day in KFC with lots of laughter seh..
You are my best company of all..
Haha..
Today as well..
Lots of laughter with you and of course with Li lian..
My dearest friend..
We have lots of laughter working together..
Isn't we?!
Haha..
Today was quite slack during work..
Hmmm..
So we could have time to talk and make our day fun!
Haha..
Thanks ya..
Due to X'mas..
There was not much crowd as everyone was going town to shop during this sales period..
Wahahaha..
=D
Today going to cycle after work at 4pm..
Yeah..
Finally get to cycle for so long..
haha..
Can't wait for this afternoon..
=)
But sad to say that i have to wake up at 6.30am later..
Causee i have to reach KFC by 8am..
Hmmm..
Will be damn tired later ya..
But i think i'll have lots of fun this afternoon..!
So it's worth it ya..
Hmmm..
i think that's all ya..
Got to go..
It's late..
SWEET DREAMS!
=)
TatA..




1. Do i have to really sound you?
2. What's the reason that you can't sound me instead?
3. Hello?! I'm a girl after all..!
4. This is my first love.. Do you know that?
5. Who do you think you are?! ><
6. I'm not going to sound you.. Alright..
7. If you think you don't give a damn to it.. Then please forget about it.. Okay..
8. I'm really fine with it..
9. Why do you have behave like that..?
10. Seriously.. you are making me to fade my feeling for you..
11. What nonsenses reason is that of you?!
12. Could you please stop that..?!
13. You really make me feel that you don't give a damn..!
14. Since that's the case.. Why do we have to go on like that..?
15. It's making us miserable.. Isn't it? Don't you think so?
16. If not.. What?
17. What if you are at my position..? Will you like it?
18. Haiz.. I guess you don't understand..
19. Everybody was giving me lots of thoughts..
20. Seriously i might decide to fade this all..
21. Not that my love for you is fake..
22. Do you know that how sad i am to say this all?
23. You really have no idea... do you know that?
24. You are showing me that you don't care about my feelings at all, although you said you do..
25. I might choose other path.. And go on with my life and pretend nothing had happen between us..
26. I really wish that you do care..
27. Okay you may think i'm thinking too much..
28. But i seriously i don't foresee any good future of us..
29. And the cause is because of your attitude towards all this..
30. Am i right to say that you won't give a damn if i don't sound you?!
31. And you will also pretend that nothing had happen.. Am i right?
32. For sure you will..
33. This is my first confess in my entire whole 15 years of my life to a guy..! You know that..
34. How honoured are you..
35. I don't even mind that you have almost a dozen ex-girlfriend..
36. And i didn't even ask about your past relationship life..
37. You said you won't sound girls that love you.. But you want them to sound you..
38. To me it don't sound funny but it sound ridiculous..
39. You ask me whether i love you or like you.. And why?
40. And i answered love..
41. Cause love is to explain how much i like you..
42. There's no reason for why you like a person..
43. If there is a reason.. It's not a true love..
44. You get it?!
45. You said that you like me in the first place. but it fades..
46. Then i ask you again.. You said you still like me..
47. And you said that you like me because i'm talkative and you like my smile.. 
48. I don't even know how much you really like me..
49. Is that all to explain how much you like me...?
50. You make me scared do you know that?
51. I won't get to know what you are thinking..
52. You always change attitude towards me..
53. I won't get to know when you are speaking the truth..
54. You may lie to me.. For that i'm not very sure..
55. Spending time with you may be comfortable and enjoyable..
56. But you don't make me feel carefree and secure..
57. You are always making me hiding from you and gave me an unpleasant feeling..
58. What am i suppose to do..?
59. This is not the way that a relationship should be right..?
60. I really can't take it anymore..
61. To me it really feels miserable for you to treat all this like that..
62. Why am i always the one to make the first move?
63.You don't even want to try..
64. Are you going to go on like that..?
65. I really don't know what you thinking mann..
66. Can you just put down a little pride of yours?
67. Please?
68. I really don't feel like going on like this with you..!
69. I'm almost to the limit that i could take..
70. I'm almost ther to give up.. T.T
71. I'm running out of tears..
72. Do you know that..?
73. I guess you don't cry much like me towards all this right?
74. Stop acting an emo in front of me..
75. Which i don't think you have to..
76. But why you just have to be like that..?
78. Remembered i ask you change your profile pic as i do not like to see you that emo in msn?
79. I asked that is because i cared how you feel..
80. But you asked me not to see..
81. But i replied that we are chatting so i mustn't not see right..
82. And you actually replied me and ask me not to chat with you..
83. Do you know how much it hurt when you replied me that way?
84. I guess you don't know that too..
85. You keep hurting me without noticing that..
86. But i still keep my love for you.
87. What's all this?
88. It really don't feel good alright..
89. Right now... Not even a sms from you..
90. This shows that you really don't care..
91. Don't think that i'll sms you instead..
92 Three words: Wait Long Long..
93. Alright.. I won't be that naive to make the first move anymore.
94. So take it or leave it.
95. You don't like it.. You can just tell me.. And lets forget about it..
96. That's all i can say about you..
97. Sometimes you make me feel that you're a selfish person..
98. And to me.. You're really like a hypocrite..
99. I don't know which one is your true self..
100. Lastly, i don't want to carry on like this if you really don't care.. So i might really gave up! 
Hmmm..
Readers..
That's lot right?
100 questions and thoughts..
Arrggg..
Really cannot take it..
Actually there's more..
But i shall end it in 100..
Anyway..
I'm damn tired now..
Bye bye..
TatA..
=) 









Hmmm..
Readers..
Not much for today alright..
Haha..
Anyway today got to go fetch wei xing..
He's gonna be back today form cambodia!
Haha..
Miss him so much yo..
Later meeting xiu xia and clarin..
Hmmm..
Can't wait to see wei xing..
Anyway here are my some thoughts now..
You readers may not understand what i'm talking about..
But it's okay..
You guys don't have to understand..
Alright..
It's in korean anyway..
Read it if you can.
나는 당신에 관하여 다만 잊을 수 없다! 나는 무엇을 하고 가정하기 위하여 인가? 나는 진짜로 혼동한다! 나가 바라는 방법 나는 당신에게서 모두를 지금 명백하게 할 수 있고, 당신이 말한 무슨과에 관하여 나가 들은 모두는 진실하지 않았다. 이 전부 일 나는 나가 당신을 더 이상 사랑하지 않는다 눈 속임하고 있다, 그러나 나가 나는 알고 있다. 나는 나가 당신을 지금 잊고 새로운 신선했던 것 시작할 수 있었다는 것을 바란다. 나는 누군가 다른 사람을 사랑하는 것을 시도했다 조차, 그러나 것은 진짜로 운동하지 않는다. 나는 다만 모두가 이다 당신에게서 응답을 원한다. 그리고 나의 질문은: 당신에게 저를 전에 사랑해 달라고 하는가? 저것은 다량을 나가 알고 싶은 모두, 나 바라지 않는다 이다.
Haha..
I know its long..
Hmmm..
Anyway..
Bye readers..
TatA!
=)


Hey ya..
I'm back to actually post about my feelings now..
Talk about that..
Things to tell you guys..
My feelings for him had just faded..
Haha..
I'm happy actually..
And i do not want it back too..
It really sucks..
It's even more sucks after i had really get to know what kind of person you are..
You are a total HYPOCRITE..
That's what i can say about you..
And i think you are totally useless..
I have never seen such useless guy like you...
And also a jerk like you will never get to live long in this world..
And you are not fit to..
It's not that i want to comment about you..
What you did, you knew deep inside your heart..
How could you malign me for things that are not my fault at all..!
And how could you twist the story to others just like that..
I hate people who are like that..
Now i think we can't even be friends..
As i think being friends with you are a total horror..
I will never knew what you are up to..
And i think i'm not treated as a friend to you..
You just treated me like a fool..
Play around with me..
My life with you was just like a merry-go-round..
There will never be a stopped..
Unless one of us get own bravely to stop the machine..
If not we'll get hurt..
So i decided to be the one who get down first and stop this game..
Now what i can say is..
Our friendship is OVER.
But i'll still be normal with you when i get to see you..
But not as good as we can be last time..
And i do not want that game to restart again..
So we shall keep it aside..
Hope you'll get to know and understand..
My life from now on will be a refresh without you..
And i believe i'll find my true purpose in life..
Haha..
Hmmm..
Readers..
That's all i think..
Okay..
Bye ya..
TatA!
=)